There's not much of a pause in life these days. After finishing chemo and having my DMX, it was right back to work and life. On one hand, that's a good thing. Getting back into routine is always helpful, no matter your age or lifestyle. But have you ever come back from a busy weekend trip and felt like you needed a weekend to get over your weekend? Or a vacation to recover from a fast-paced vacation? That's similar to how I feel these days. It's been good to get back into routine, but I need a break from my past 8 months. It's been emotionally, physically, mentally, and professionally exhausting to navigate life with a cancer diagnosis. Spring break will be a welcomed week. Yes, I have several doctor's appointments for infusions and CT scans to prepare for my next surgery. But maybe I can also go to the beach, or to a fun new coffee shop, or to a state park to walk the dog. Something to get a reprieve from this current life stage.
The last few weeks I've been getting caught up on checkups that I've neglected due to the fact I'm always at MD Anderson. I've had a checkup with my PCP, a skin check with the dermatologist and in a couple of days I'll finally go to the dentist. The doctor removed a spot today on my back....she mentioned the possibility of melanoma....but it felt a little like listening to the squawking of the teacher on Charlie Brown. I let the thought squawk in and out of my ears and didn't let any fear settle in my heart. I'll deal with that if it comes. Right now I'm going to watch my daughter practice the sport she loves on benches that make my ass go numb like all the other parents. Today I'm just a normal working mom. :)
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